I feel like Jonah. I want to run away from this message. I have ran away from this message. And God let me run away without dire consequences. Consequences like ending up in the belly of a giant fish. I thank God for His patience with me. My heart races as I type this. My palms are sweaty as I consider writing on this controversial topic.
"Why Lord?", I thought. "Why must I give this message?" "This community will chew me up and spit me out!" "I don't want to offend anyone, God", I reasoned. "They've received enough hate from people that wear the Christian banner already, Lord." "They will cancel me before I can even get my ministry off the ground, God." "Please Lord, not me", I asked. "At least not right now", I said.
Silence from God.
The silent response. The same response I very well knew would be His response. This is the 3rd time He has lead me to write about this topic. I vowed to write the unadulterated Word of God, whether it was hard to do so or not. I have put this off long enough. So, here I go … full of anxiety and full of obedience.
On 7/27/2020 at 5:00 a.m., I read Isaiah 16 in its entirety. This scripture spoke of a city called Moab. Moab was a prideful city on the verge of destruction. God was set to destroy the city because of their pride. However, the scripture did not specify why they were prideful. I wanted to know what gave Moab its great sense of pride. So, I hopped on Google for a quick engine search.
I never found a definitive answer on why Moab was a prideful city. However, I did discover there is a city in modern day Utah called Moab. Moab, Utah has created a Moab Pride Festival to celebrate the pride of the LGBTQ community. I was mind-blown at the irony. There I was reading about an old biblical city called Moab that was set to be destroyed due to its pride, and here is a modern day city called Moab that has a yearly festival to celebrate pride.
Yet, if you have read any of my writings, you are aware that I do not believe in irony or coincidences. I discovered Moab Pride Festival on a whim because God wanted me to. I reasoned with God because the LGBTQ community is very vocal about the lack of support from Christians. Christians are called to love one another. But the fact is, the LGBTQ community has not felt love from Christians.
They have felt judged. They have felt hated. They have felt tolerated. They have felt degraded... but they have not felt love.
Which is exactly why I didn't want to speak on this touchy subject. The LGBTQ community does not need one more jab to their bruised body caused by cynical Christianity. They need ointment for their bruises. They need a band-aid for the pain. They need an ice pack from the fiery, wrathful words … they may even need a hospital bed for crying out loud. But the last thing they need is one more jab from a unloving Christian.
I pondered why the LGBTQ community is under such harsh scrutiny amongst Christians. The answer is simple. The sins of the LGBTQ community are out in the open, while the sins of others are hidden. When I was living in sin, no one could tell from looking at me that I was a fornicator. My sin was hidden. I attended church services in the mist of my sins and was never judged for my disobedience to God simply because no one could see it.
Yet, if a member of the LGBTQ community attended the same church service, I wonder how many looks of distaste they would have receive from the flock? I wonder how uncomfortable they would've felt in the same house of God as me with my sins camouflaged and theirs visible? I wonder would my church family embrace them with loving arms the same way they embraced me with my sins sitting just beneath the surface of my smile?
Sin, whether visible or invisible, must be done away with. The LQBTQ community has received a lot of hate from Christians. Yet, hate is the polar opposite of what Christ stood for. When the adulterous woman was caught in the act of sin, the people wanted to stone her per Old Law customs. Jesus gave the famed response in John 8:7, "He that is without sin cast the first stone." No one dared throw a stone at her because everyone had sinned at some point. Yet, when the angry mob left this is what transpired:
John 8:10-11 King James Version (KJV)
When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, Woman, where are those thine accusers? hath no man condemned thee?
She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more.
God is so merciful. The woman was caught in the very act of adultery. Yet Jesus said, "Go, and sin no more." He showed love and compassion, which is something we Christians fail to do today. However, Jesus did not permit the woman to continue on in sin. She was freed from the consequence of sin, but she was not freed to go and participate in sin.
In Romans 6:1, the Apostle Paul addresses a question. It was asked, "Since God is so forgiving, can we just willingly live in our sins?" Paul answers in Romans 6:2, God forbid. Yes, God is loving and forgiving, but we are not to take advantage of His love and live comfortably in sin. We are to walk away from sin, and walk towards God.
Would it have been acceptable for the adulterous woman to be a proud adulterer? God forbid. We should not be proud of any sins we commit. Yes, it takes strength to admit to the world that you are attracted to the same sex knowing that you will be jabbed for doing so. It takes courage to tell loved ones something about yourself that may make them look at you in disgust. I can't imagine how that must feel. Quite honestly, I don't want to know how that feels.
I can understand being proud of yourself for saying what is scary to say. I can understand the lifted weight that one must feel when unburdening themselves with a secret. I would be ignorant to ignore these facts. These are the same facts that so many Christians willfully ignore. But no one should ever be proud of sin. Fornication felt good while I was in it, but I was never proud of it.
Fornication kept me from walking freely in the spirit. Fornication kept me locked within the desire of my flesh. I could not live like that any longer. So, I walked away from it, and walked towards God's loving arms instead. I have been safe and warm ever since.
I want to leave you with clarifying that I am not Anti-LGBTQ. I am Anti-Flesh. Whether it's fornication, adultery, lies, envy, backbiting, hate, pride, murder (Romans 1:29-30) or homosexuality (Romans 1:26-28). I am against all things that prohibits anyone from walking within the spirit of God. I am Pro-Spirit.
The immense love that I feel from Christ should be felt by all. I want to share this love with the world. This is why I write. It would be selfish of me to keep such a whimsical love to myself. This same love is available to everyone. I have written to all sinners to turn towards God and away from our flesh, and I will continue to write towards us all.
But this one, is for the LGBTQ community. This one is for you because Christ loves you. In Matthew 18:12, Christ states He'll leave the 99 sheep for the 1 sheep. He will do this because He loves you. God forced my hand to write this one article for you. Because you were that one that I wanted to ignore. Not because I don't love you, but because I didn't want to offend you. But how can I say that I love you if I'm not willing to share the love that I have found with you?
I don't want to bruise you any more than what you have already suffered. I'm only writing to you because Christ told me to write to you. I will not run from Him for my sake or yours. If there was anything written that offended you, I apologize. But I do not apologize for standing for Christ. That is one thing that I am proud of. I am proud to say that I am trying my best to be what Christianity truly stands for. And that's spreading the unadulterated gospel truth, in season and out of season, in love.
If you don't remember anything else written in this article, just remember that I am not against you. I am merely against the workings of the flesh. The flesh that runs contrary to the spirit. The flesh that keeps non-LGBTQ members and LGBTQ members alike outside the ark of spiritual warmth. The flesh that so often keeps us from walking in the spirit.
I am against the flesh.
I am Anti-Flesh.
I am Pro-Spirit.